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| Ha People are funny. like x said "you bought lies when i spoke truth." i call it how it is. im sorry people. im a beliver in truth and freedom of speach. im sick of the word juggalo right now cuz to many are fake. its not a gang people u dont have 2 have ur ass kicked 2 be one. its a life style and how u life ur life. u dont even have 2 like icp or anything with p records 2 be on. its a lifestyle thats all. i dont have 2 flaunt it 24 7. fuck i hate lables. | | |
| alot has been going threw my head these last few days. most dont know this but i have been in a live hell five months ago. i had alot of time to think to myself about everything that was going on. i became weak. i didnt do much of anything but sit and think. i had a big awaking back in feb when people i planed to mever talk to came back into my life. around this time i began to question many things about myself. i hadnt a clue of what i wanted to do with life i was so sar out of my mind. but then one of the two that came back reminded me that i am a very good person and very sweet. i miss being that person. why on earth did i hide them. these songs below are some that reminded me to forgive myself. each day im growing stronger and i am so thankful for you. im getting better now thank you so much kayla. i love you to death girl. im out yall 03. Hole In My Hand
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by Day Of Fire | | | Lyrics:
See the marker stone, see the heavy load
See the burden on my head…hum…
See I can’t move in with my lantern gone
I need you only friend to shine in me
And I’m not afraid to show my heart
I’m not afraid to let you start in my life again
With a hole in my hand, and a strength to my stand
With a flame in my heart, burn in me again
With a hole in my hand, and a strength to my stand
With a flame in my heart, burn in me again
With a hole in my hand, with a hole in my hand…
See the ropes are long and they hold on strong
To tie me to the end…gone
See I can’t move on with my freedom gone
I need you only friend to set me free
And I’m not afraid to show my heart
I’m not afraid to let you start in my life again
And I’m not afraid to show my heart
(Josh Brown, Gregg Hionis, Joe Pangallo) / © 2006 All My Life Music (ASCAP) / New Spring (ASCAP). All rights for the world on behalf of All My Life Music administered by New Spring (ASCAP). / Hionis Music (BMI) / Bridge Building (BMI). All rights for the world on behalf of Hionis Music administered by Bridge Building (BMI). / Blue Universe Music (ASCAP)
Behind the Song:
"This was one of the first songs I ever wrote for Day Of Fire. It began with the first record and was finally completed wiith the full band in the practice room. This song cries out for mercy and repentance." - Josh Brown (Day Of Fire) 05. Regret
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by Day Of Fire | | | Lyrics:
Don’t you ever forget…don’t you ever believe in the lie…
You could never redeem any time looking back in regret
Don’t you ever forget
Did you see it coming? Was it more than you could bet?
Did you fall for something? Were you taking your next step?
Was it all for nothing? Just to find yourself in debt
To the thought of something that you could have never kept
You could have never kept
Don’t you ever forget…don’t you ever believe in the lie…
You could never redeem any time looking back in regret
Don’t you ever forget…don’t you ever believe in the lie…
You could never redeem any time looking back in regret…
Don’t you ever forget…
Could you keep it coming? Did you stop and catch your breath?
Would you walk on water or just sink inside your head?
Could you stand for something even if you stand against?
Would you hold on to it if it’s broken in your hands?
Broken in your hands
Sometimes you just don’t know just how to let it go
Sometimes you just don’t know
(Josh Brown, Joe Pangallo, Chris Pangallo, Gregg Hionis, Zach Simms) / © 2006 All My Life Music (ASCAP) / New Spring (ASCAP). All rights for the world on behalf of All My Life Music administered by New Spring (ASCAP). / Blue Universe Music (ASCAP) / Pangallo Music (BMI) / Hionis Music (BMI) / Bridge Building (BMI). All rights for the world on behalf of Hionis Music administered by Bridge Building (BMI). / Alanrosemusic (ASCAP)
Behind the Song:
"We all have a past; we all have regrets and mistakes that we have made. It does us absolutely no good to try and hang on to them. We have got to forgive ourselves and step forward." - Josh Brown (Day Of Fire) 01. Love
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by Day Of Fire
Listen: [rm] | | | Lyrics:
From a shattered home…looking for an open door…
any way may be the way out…
a bleeding telephone…razorblade cuts on both arms
911 may be the way out…
Hey yeah… anybody hear now? Anyone at all?
Does anybody hear now? Have you come and gone?
With both heart strings torn…looking for true love and more…
Any day may be the day of…bruised and battered bones…
A broken heart an open sore…
911 may be the way of
Hey yeah…anybody hear now? Anyone at all?
Does anybody hear now? Have you come and gone?
Hey yeah…anybody hear now? Anyone at all?
Does anybody hear now? Have you come and gone?
Hear me when I scream!! Where is love?
Overtaking me!!! Where is love?
Screaming out in me!! Where is love?
(Josh Brown, Joe Pangallo, Adam B. Smith, Zach Simms, Gregg Hionis, Chris Pangallo) / © 2006 All My Life Music (ASCAP) / New Spring (ASCAP). All rights for the world on behalf of All My Life Music administered by New Spring (ASCAP). / Blue Universe Music (ASCAP) / Kramerica Music (ASCAP) / Alanrosemusic (ASCAP) / Hionis Music (BMI) / Bridge Building (BMI). All rights for the world on behalf of Hionis Music administered by Bridge Building (BMI). / Pangallo Music (BMI)
Behind the Song:
'This song began while Day Of Fire was on tour with Third Day. It was inspired by a girl that I met at a show. Her arms were full of cuts from a razor blade and she desperately needed someone to reach out to her.' - Josh Brown (Day Of Fire) |
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| welp im in good moods. eveything at works goin great. im goin to icp with a few friend in may. might go to rja for the hell of it next month. the onlt thing that bugs me is that im still single. yea i move to a place in april which makes me happy. one goal left. i wanna get it done soon im so sick of being alone anymore CAN'T GO ON I can’t do it without You
I’ve tried so many times, and I’ve failed
Lord I really need You in my life,
Fall every time that You’re not in sight,
Can’t go on without Your love, I can’t go on…
Every time You arrive let my heart be open
Cause its You I put my hope in
You give me love, give me strength, and You give me courage
Even though I don’t deserve it
I can’t go on without You
I don’t believe that I’d even want to
All I really wanna see is me becoming more and more like You
Chorus:
Lord I really need You in my life
Fall every time that You’re not in sight
Can’t go on without your love, I can’t go on…
And I don’t wanna face this world alone
I don’t wanna do this on my own
Can’t go on without Your love, I can’t go on…
I see the need in my, life and I can’t deny
That You’re the reason I’m breathing I need You in my life
I’m on a new level and never will I be coming down
Lift me up when I’m feeling drowned inside the shame I found
And I believe what You said and You promised me
Now I constantly look for You to keep on watching me
I can’t go on without You, I don’t believe I’d ever want to
Never beyond You all I wanna see is me becoming like You
Lord I realize, can’t do it on my own
I need You close so You can help me make it through the storm
And when I fall I know, You’re there to pick me up
Brush me off and then You’re quick to bring me back inside Your love
I don’t know where to go now
I’m lost in this emotion
I’m giving You control now
Pull me up from the bottom of the ocean
I don’t know where to go now
I’m lost in this emotion
I’m giving You control now
You pull me up, pull me up when I’m going down
Yo, I could never let anything get between You and me
At times I’ve tried to drive solo, but I finished on "E"
My own anxiety blinded me that I just couldn't see
That You were always there and not once did You every leave me
I learned the hard way but I’m glad I can now say I’m free
Through all the turmoil You have opened my eyes to see
The greater love that You give, and never ask a fee
Now I can say I can’t go on with out your love in me
Behind the Song:
"This song is honestly self-explanatory. It’s our hearts cry! There’s nothing that we’ve realized more than the message of this song. We’ve come to a place in our music where we acknowledge the necessity of our Savior in our music, and this is the kind of song that is birthed in that type of mentality. The truth of this message is made more real each time we sing this song." - Group 1 Crew FORGIVE ME Father, I’m going through some heavy things
It seems like this world ain’t getting any better
The more we try to get closer to You
The farther we run from Your throne
I’ve spent so many nights wonderin’ when will it end
When will the day come when happiness begins
I’m running the race but it seems too hard to win
I’m sick of mourning my stomach is throwing up in the morning
I’m calling for help and watching it melt away
My heart’s been put on display and put away
In many ways, many times I told myself it was ok
And anger was the price that was paid
While these faded dreams just screamed to bring them home
The burden was too heavy I kept running from the throne
I can’t take it any longer
I can taste my spirit hunger
God please help me get home
Chorus:
Lord though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I’m not scared cause You’re holding my breath
I only fear that I don’t have enough time left
To tell the world that there’s no time left, Lord please
Lord though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I’m not scared cause You’re holding my breath
I only fear that I don’t have enough time left
To tell the world that there’s no time left
I’ve come to terms that I’m burning both sides of the rope
And I’m hoping that self-control would kick in before I’m choking off
The sin that be destroying every fiber I got
I need the Lord in every way I’ll never make it I’m not
Going back to the way I was before Christ in my life
I couldn’t do it I would lose it there’s no point to the fight
And I’m writing this song, for the people who don’t belong
I pray away the pain you feel from all the things that went wrong
Inside a life that’s filled with anger and disappointment
Cause daddy treated you weaker than all of the other kids
It’s annoying and I feel for all of you who wanna give up
You feel stuck I feel the same way Lord help us stay up
You couldn’t pay me to abandon the idea of true hope
That I could make it through this life into a place where there’s no crying
I’m dying to find You with open arms when I go
Knowing You love me and You waiting to give rest to my soul
Lord I don't know what I'm struggling for
There’s go to be more
Than this life I know
But still I’m here fighting to never give up
I find strength in Your love
And You will see me through
Behind the Song:
"This song was birthed after a deep time of prayer in which we discovered the need for understanding how God viewed us in the light of his forgiveness. So many times as humans we like to place humanistic qualities on God simply because we can’t comprehend how He can love such unlovable creatures…and yet He still does. This song gives every listener the courage to believe that with God, it’s never too late to be forgiven. When you embrace this grace He’s made available to us, there’s nothing you ever need to fear. No valley in your life is permanent…" - Group 1 Crew | | |
| welll people i can say ive been doin stuff for once. ive set four goals for myself and already gotten two of them done. i got a car even thou is ghetto i love it. jus gota fix a few things on it. that was one of them. the 2nd one i got done was i finally got a new job and no longer work at the movie machine. i now work out at mel hambeltion in the quick lane section. now all i gotta do is find a home and last find me a good decent girl. but things are gettin better and im happy about that. later | | |
| Made To Love
Made To Love
The dream is fading now I’m staring at the door
I know it’s over ‘cause my feet have hit the cold floor
Check my reflection, I ain’t feeling what I see
Its no mystery
Whatever happened to a passion I could live for?
What became of the flame that made me feel more?
And when did I forget …
That I was made to love You
I was made to find You
I was made just for You
Made to adore You
I was made to love and be loved by You
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said You’d keep me never would You leave me
I was made to love
And be loved by You
The dream’s alive with my eyes open wide
Back in the ring You got me swingin’ for the grand prize
I feel the haters spittin’ vapors on my dreams
But I still believe …
I’m reaching out, reachin’ up, reachin’ over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehovah
And Daddy I’m on my way …
Anything, I would give up for You
Everything, I’d give it all away |
I'm For You
I'm For You
Tell me where its hurting
Are you burning?
Running just to catch your breath
And going nowhere
It's getting old when you feel like you got nothing left
Well it ain't over 'til it’s over
I told you since the day we met
So let me be the voice through all the noise
Whatever I gotta be
I'll be for you
Whatever you need from me
To see you through
Everyone of us has stumbled
Everybody's humbled
We hit the ground and our lives crumble
Whatever I gotta be
I'll be for you
I'm for you
If you never knew
If you never knew
I'm for you
You know it’s true
I know the feeling
I know it’s real when the drama's all in your face
You see a mountain
I hear a promise – it’s never more than we can take
Well it ain't over, 'til it's over
We can learn from our mistakes
So let me be the voice through all the noise
Everyone of us will fall
Have our backs against the wall
And everyone shares a need to be loved
You’ve always been for me
So I will be for you
That's just what it means to love |
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